A Saturday night with a dark sky without any star around it and followed by light rain. In this early morning with great dizziness in my head after attending some activities. I decide to write up this chit-chat here. This post wasn’t work smoothly, I disturbed by mommy and a s**t and f****d up smoke of dad’s cigarette. Not really in my good mood. So I can say anything that I like, eh.
But I keep my back sit-straight right in front of my lappy just to write this post. — Well I can hear rain sound as background sound kkk~ — Back to the topic, I just wanna do a little chit-chat. It’s about a dearest friend of mine.
— Oh damn my mom still sit right next to me, she keeps talk to me even I use my headphone. You know, don’t disturb people when he/she use any of earbud. But look, she’s gone to her bedroom already yeay. —
Since it’s a rainy day, someone must be laying in the bed with teary eyes, wishing rain will carry his/her tears away by that rain. Yes, my dearest friend. It’s the right time to erase it all right now. But remember, after this, you CAN NOT remember any of them, okay? I know it’s painful, no, maybe you know about this more than me, because you’re the one who feel it. It’s just my advice. When you know your crush don’t give you any respond as you expected, what will you call that? You’re just hurt yourself! And, do you think it’s what your-people-around you want? For holy Skrillex, — By the way, I’m listening to Skrillex’s song right now, don’t have any idea what to say — no, BIG NO!
Please, it’s not about who or who. It’s just about a nice and also a ‘stupid’ girl at the same time. — Well, it’s not me who said that, but another friend of mine — I just realize that it’s my role to help her solve this problem. Even it’s not easy, I’ll try to fix it. I don’t want it to go any further. Once again, it’s not because of who or who; or something or something. Maybe when you fell in love with someone and he/she has find his/her heart, you’ll always love him/her. But it’s not working for me. If he has a gf, I’ll walk off from him and try to find another fish, umm I mean man. You can’t blame me if I walk off too easily. — Well it’s not easy, but it’s sure in the end. — He’s not mine, so why I should keep him inside my heart? No, I can’t do that. It’s better for me to waiting for Mr. Right. I don’t have any extreme feeling about this or even a passion — no, actually not. But.. — Yeah, I still can’t understand about my heart. Sometimes I want someone to take my heart away, but sometimes I need my heart inside myself. — If you know what I mean. —
So my dear friend. Actually I’ve got many things to tell, but I think it’s all for now. I just hope you can enjoy your life than hurt your own life. Just remember this, when you know something will hurt you, you must avoid it. — Hey, it makes me confuse. Is it me who ever feel this sorta feeling or I don’t wanna feel this kinda feeling? Hmm, dunno. — Maybe you must remind me in the future if I hurt myself someday 🙂
Hmm one more. When you have a blast, someone maybe have a flame. And remember, when you have a flame, someone maybe have a blast.